This Is NOT A Surrender

First words
"Hey, I know you"
Irony.
Because just now
I find I don't.
That, or you
Are no longer you
Having changed
To someone feared.
Who I thought I knew
I loved.
Who I see now
I fear.
Because the person
You were
Was never like this.
What happened?
Was it you or I?
Did my confidence
Do this?
Or did fear?
I insist
I am not her
But I see her,
In the mirror.
And she laughs at me
Because she knows.
I think that I am not her
But she was me.
So who are we?
Now in this tangle
Of unknown terror.
Where are you?
What happened to
The one who made me
Believe in
Maybe.
I guess my advice works
For everyone but me.
So do as I say
And whatever you do
Don't be like me, Love.
Promises are words
Solidified by love.
But without a heart
They vaporize
Till you hold air and
Mistake sunlight for snow.
In the sun I've never seen
A winter quite like this.
Never was so cold.
Knowing my
quest for joy
Has ended
Heartbroken.
I know.
Irony.