Friends

Dear friends
I have a question
What does it take
To become, one of you
So much time and yet i feel
Like I failed the test.
Maybe I'm just seeing things
I've done that before
Thought there was nothing
But it was really just me.
So now I'm falling
Down a tunnel of my own design
Wanting you to save me
Wanting you to need me
Wanting you to ignore the fact
That I hit Self Destruct
Before I fell